calistenicscircuitraining | state of my feet

and legs..... come to think of it

they were like this

when i had war veteran despair before

now i dont have it

just weirder misery

they did surgery on my back

seemingly nothing

just to ruin my tattoo

well

everything happens for a reason

im here for harassing

all those chicks

and dudes and kids

well all that OCD

made me meet bella

but shes over me

my heart doesnt beat

much for her anymore

the meds made my heart

before completely cold for her

which was good

or theyd just

infinitely tortured me

like i did to chicks at the commute

someone random just messaged me

so there is hope

when i drank coffee

i just turned bitter and lonely

i wasnt that before

always some hope

which is lessening now

hey

im writing again

need a lot of tillskott

av c-vitamin

i know they shot me full of cisordinol accutard

when i was cramping in sleep

it will work for about 3 months

or 2½ months now or something

then i asked the nurse if i could

get 1mg risperdal to take when i need it?

"the doctors cant do that for you"

wtf?

they want me sick?

same thing with saving the loose dip

which is strong as hell

instead of giving me bag dip?

i know im speaking for others through this

so work hard on getting some rights my cp people

or getting some actual nutricious

food which turn you healthy for real

oh, what does that mean anyway?

"Cerebral palsy (CP) is a group of movement disorders that appear in early childhood.[1] Signs and symptoms vary among people and over time,[1][3] but include poor coordination, stiff muscles, weak muscles, and tremors.[1] There may be problems with sensation, vision, hearing, and speech.[1] "

well, thats not really me

i just cant move my legs....

i do get tremors

but if i dont touch my skin

i dont anymore?

and then i feel sorta stiff

and frozen in a bad way?

my mood changes all the time

my sensory input......

my world isnt chaos

but its different every day

i have no way to describe

how it changes......