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#nofap going good today. havent watched porn. its mostly wheat thats the problem. i dont feel lonely eventhough its pitchblack now. 18:46 1½ day before forced injection. people are insulting me online. i mean i got angry but not really as i drank blessed from bella. its really a nightmare setting but im calm. only ate yoghurt with cornflakes today. not 10 glyphosat enhanced sandwiches thats so fattyfying. the thing is though glyphosate is a protein so i dont get how that works.

i started yesterday

by moving my arm from right to upwards, real good thing

or teh left one, waaaeer, with 1 litre water bottle

and then moving my movable bed almost closest down

then doing pullups, you can excert yourself

a lot that way with upwards resistance

often when working out we ask ourselves: 1) where is this taking me / am i wasting my time? and 2) i dont see any results. if we apply it to the polar opposites, we get the following. 1) browsing porn leads you over time to watching just more and more perverse shit all the time, until you find yourself on darknet fapping to frazzledrip. 2) what results do you see from junkfood? gaining in weight, mental / physical disorders. then we ask the same things with working out then. 1) to a life which doesnt need to be "stimulated" all the time by outside forces, which most of the time costs money, and even more importantly, time. "time is the essence of life" - nitin sawhney on the concept album "prophecy". since you dont need to "pay" for stimulation, you get naturally inspired from just exerting your body. "all truly great thoughts are concieved through walking". with porn the want to need (w2n) is near instantaneous if youre at home or alone. at least with junkfood you have to walk to the grocery store, if its 30 mins to and forth, you wont gain that much. when i stopped this practice, i weighted my most ever: 140kg. i figured if i did (a plethora) of drugs, i wouldnt need food, but this was not the case. but later, after my second suicide attempt, which has left me unable to move my legs, it did sorta work: no one flirted me with at the housing, so the only thing on my mind, for at least a quarter of the time since 2 years ago, was attributed to 1) not eating too much 2) working out. 3) was my addiction to MMORPGs, which, after getting banned enough times, ive now just given up. i dont see the point. you slave away clicking to gain some EXP / GP / items, but so little time conversing with people. and as i realized after the bloodclot 2 months ago, im not lonely anymore. so i dont see the need. if youve followed me you know that i originally started playing computer games again after a huge 15 year hiatus, because bella left me. the pain was just too much, i had no idea what else to do. and when she left me the second time, it got even worse. i was used to talking to her all day, saying goodnight, kissing her goodmorning. and whenever i tried to talk to people who lived around me, they just fled away. what to do? of course, start doing even MORE drugs. success! people started talking to me, and my controlling grandmother had moved southward. i finally got some action after a whole 4 year hiatus. she was just like bella and as beautiful as rhianna. i didnt need any meds when i was around her, as her aura healed me. but i did need to smoke with her, then we started drinking, leading to sex. and. maybe im happy my grandma stopped me. my teeth were almost falling out. anyway. i got sorta offtopic after awhile. but wouldnt you know, this is the first writing ever, inspired by working out, i think, for 1 hour or more today. without having the computer (or anything) on.

https://svenskadikter.com/Beyond_nofap

beyond #nofap
- not fapping
- not checking porn
- realizing your dream, aka starting a corporation, or starting an education or scientific research
- not liking women, not dating, talking badly about women
- MGTOW, men making it on their own
- working out
- if a woman flirts with you, youve already lost
- women like men that are in charge
- vagus nerve healing for better libido
- eating more nutriciously
- discipline, keep a schedule

listen to the vid

https://svenskadikter.com/Pain_is_weakness_leaving_the_body

if when youre working out, especially in

a new way or youve paused for long, it

itches tickles

or you

burp

fart

or your

pee

poo

smells differently, its because your body is

healing and also removing poisons from it

also, if a bodypart heats up, especially a lot

for a longer period, it means its very damaged

and needs some help in healing. what youre really

doing is enhancing the inflamation, which could

have been dormant until then. what you do is put

some tigerbalm on the spot. if you know or can find

an eastern shop they have much better quality ones.

there are chili and mint based versions as well.

you know what is best for you. also, going on a massage

is useful. which is one of the reason to get an enhanced

inflamation in the first spot. unless the masseus tells

you how to treat it, they can make your body addicted

to the process. which isnt inherently bad, but a real

practicians purpose should be that their patients dont

come back. also remember that even if you train your

legs, your elbow or part of your arms can flare up,

same in the opposite way. its just how the body is

connected.

sorry about not updating here

ill mirror

ive been plenty of vids

at least 1 song on the subject i think

anyway, i started training with empty water bottles

good for holding muscles

then half litre then 1 litre

now im doing double bicep curls at once

it feels real nice