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ive worked out about 30 mins today. 10 mins yesterday.

they barge in and try to fill me with coffeebread

the second i start working out.

its quite see through and is not as bad as in stockholm.

but they wait until youve gathered strength.

then feederism you with 20-30 coffeebreads in less than 24 hours.

i get inspired from working out just like abusing junkfood.

except they did a killswitch on junkfood so it really does nothing for me

except give some energy, but workouts give energy as well.

they increased the hardness of the air maddress to punish me here

i prefer a foam maddress to this

but i guess its still softer but i doubt it

its been what, 4-5 days, ive asked 3 times

for the support pillows so i dont get

pressure wounds on my feed and legs

and they come with excuses

ive asked 5 times for them to reduce the hardness

a woman said "i accept my fate"

but then she runs away

thus the new aphorism

"if you accept your fate why do you run away?

everything is according to an llm

based on the most common denominator

thus it is presumed and they

know nothing else not even bella

that i am paranoid when i have anxiety

or just paranoid across the board

or when a powerful man tells me

in condescenting tone whats right for me

i have anxiety again

i cannot really drink more coffee to aleviate

except now i also have tardiv dyskinesi

previousdays it didnt get better when i rested

as in, i couldnt even

now i can at least write for long compared

to the petroleum coffee

i now have blessed by bella coffee

ica basic powder

i will go back to working out

quickly you get angry because of killswitch

in neuroleptics and twitter turns to ultimate stupid

but after awhile you get calm and centered

a patriarch, a fathers figure